“I am dark but I am comely..”
3.2.08
babysitting, apparently. thinking about freedom, and experience. wondering if babies were examples. marveling at a toddler running around, naked. it seemed to need no supervision beyond observation and provisions. lying down on a thick chenille rug with Pauline Nadler! kissing her mouth and nipples, her slim ribcage and long waist. the image of her caramel chocolate skin stretching out in front of me suddenly, like a painting by egon schiele. very beautiful. i was aware of having made the painting, and it was half finished, (her torso,) that is, it only went as far as i had kissed her.
thought about the unfinished work of humankind. the development of civilization, the body and the bride of Christ, myth and the cosmos. what do we bring into being by naming? what is dark matter? i tried to remember something about quantum physics..
waking, i regarded the cats, their contemplative nature and instant access to their own ground of being.. contemplating freedom and the multiple states of being. in my office, i turned on the computer, opened the mail. thought about babies. the concept of manifested being and principle being. wondered if pregnancies that are terminated represent principial or contingent manifestations of being. contemplated the national and private debate over abortion and “rights”. the phrase no rights without freedom, no freedom without rights crept into my mind. but i knew it was off. the usual phrase is no rights without duties, no duties without rights. i pondered the difference, if any between these two axioms.
looked to the bookshelf to my right and let my hand pull out guenon’s the multiple states of being, opened to a random page: Page 127, necessity and contingence, chapter 17. i read through chapter 18, the metaphysical idea of being. stunning.
